Using Negative Emotions To Force Change

These cinnamon Danish pastries have been taunting me for a while now… When I see them I keep looking, picking them up, putting them back and allowing ED that small victory.
Today had been a tough day of high anxiety and frustration at ED and myself for not beating it more.
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This afternoon I connected with all the negative emotions I was feeling…
– anxiety – fear
– frustration – low mood
– irritability
….. and more!
I decided to use all those emotions to drive change- not tomorrow but today and NOW.
Using the frustration at being afraid of eating outside ED rules to push myself to do just that. Face the fear head on and start an evening of full on eating!
Oh… and Netflix to distract and stop any urges to be active to compensate!
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It’s not easy… the anxiety is still there but sitting through it and choosing not to believe the thoughts ED is generating and know recovery action despite the fear is the only magic pill I have to beat this illness.

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