What Is Compulsive Movement?

What constitutes compulsive movement?

Formal exercise is easy to identify as something that we should not do in eating disorder recovery.

Putting trainers on, going for a run, swimming, going to the gym and formal sports are all blatantly understood as being ‘exercise’ by joe public.

What about lighter exercise though? The ‘well it is good for me and my doctor even says it is ok’ forms of movement? 
Walking, yoga, pilates etc that are seen as being not only good for the body but great for our mental health too?

Well – yes – great for the mental health of someone who has not got an ED with compulsive movement attached!

I have done ‘recovery’ in the past where I was encouraged to stop exercise and I did BUT I carried on walking, I started yoga, I replaced the gym with swimming and each time these trade ins were supported by health professionals who should have been helping.

In making these trade ins I was just negotiating with the ED: swapping one compulsion for another.

I was filled with dread at not taking that walk at 12pm, I could not go a day without doing yoga, swimming became faster & more lengths & it was all crippling mentally as it was so compulsive that if anything in life tried to interrupt it or if I tried to take ‘time out’, the anxiety peaked.

This is disabling stuff – it might not be physically damaging but mentally it is crippling if you cannot see a friend because you have to fit in a yoga session or if you still push yourself to go for a swim despite flu.

Even sneakier though is the real low level stuff.
Standing when you could sit, housework, gardening, using the upstairs loo when there’s one downstairs, taking stairs and not the lift, jigging your leg… keeping moving in any way as stillness is so hard.

The lower level movement often only we know- things we need to stop doing to break the compulsion if we want to recover but which are ingrained & so hard to identify.

Sometimes to be sure you are beating it, it’s easier to cease any unnecessary movement.. if in doubt, why risk it as if this stuff is not addressed, well – we don’t recover…

Yes, it’s that serious!

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