Today has felt like an eating disorder recovery day in which I was stumbling through thick fog… and to be fair many days are like this!
Recovery seems to be made of days of muddling through.
It feels chaotic, really quite messy & very confusing!
The sad fact about eating disorder recovery is that there is no one size fits all approach & nobody can really outline clearly the finer details of what might work for us.
We can learn what worked for others or what research might say or follow advice of an ‘expert’ but at the end of the day we have to find our unique way through the sticky recovery treacle!
At different points in the recovery process it’s also the case that different approaches might be necessary:
One method that helped initially might become less helpful & so we need to be able to muddle through, re-evaluate as we go & pivot from what isn’t helping en route!
It’s ruddy confusing at times & today has been a day of feeling like I’ve absolutely no idea which way is up, what I’m doing or where I’m going!
The food is medicine analogy is all well & good until it comes to dosage & times of taking it & the exact type of medicine to take each time.
These parts of the medicine taking we really have to learn to work out ourselves, while blindly trusting its side effects will be worth it in the end!
The same applies with compulsive movement & overcoming it… muddling through what is the best approach to stopping- working out & being honest with ourselves, let alone others, what is compulsive or not!
So- yes… in an ED recovery fog…
That’s how today felt.
RECOVERING NOMAD 