There are many things common to most of us with an eating disorder but one of these is that we spend so much time (too much time!) seeking and let’s be honest, arguing over, the ‘right way’ to do recovery. Do we go ‘all in’ (I hate that term)? Do we follow a meal plan? […]
As humans, our brains are hardwired to dislike uncertainty in any aspect of our lives and I find this an interesting topic and particularly relevant here as the ability to tolerate uncertainty is key in eating disorder recovery. Every human brain loves certainty. Our basic survival brain perceives uncertainty as a danger and so it […]
***This is a general post aimed at absolutely anyone who owns a brain, not just people with eating disorders!!*** Having recently started a course on neuroscience and brain health – I may be writing a bit more on this in the coming weeks. I find the brain absolutely fascinating. Â It is the most important organ […]
When I first became ill with anorexia nervosa, I was a 27 year old woman who had never had any form of disordered eating, history of dieting or weight manipulation and I was at a stage in my life where I felt happy and settled. Â Therefore finding myself with a severe eating disorder was a […]
How many times did I seek the magic answer to eating disorder recovery over my years of illness? How many times have I been asked the question or asked it myself of others, ‘…but HOW?!?’. “But HOW do I eat more / rest more / stop my weird and not so wonderful eating disorder behaviours […]
Wow… those early days of recovery eating could be pure mental torture when it came to trying to make a food decision. The agony and processing that an eating disorder brain will put us through in making a pure and simple choice of what to eat next is not even describable. And the sad thing […]
“You can’t change the past” – Â True. “Looking back with regret is never helpful”…. I am not so sure that one is true. The human body and brain are incredibly sophisticated and clever machines. Â Everything they do has a purpose and with that every human emotion has evolved for a reason. Emotions exist to help […]
“Christmas”…. one little word that can strike sheer terror and deep nostalgic sadness into the heart of anyone with an eating disorder. Â A time of year, those of us with eating disorders long to enjoy in the carefree and relaxed way people around us do and in the way we did before we became […]
It gets worse before it gets better…  The side effects of eating disorder recovery are often unpleasant, frequently distressing and at times just plain brutal! When I started out on this very determined and most definitely final recovery attempt a few months ago, I jumped into a process of eating disorder recovery that, like treatment […]
Throughout this eating disorder recovery journey so far, I have been through a range of emotions, of which many have not been hugely positive… Â But now there are days when I actually start to not just feel positive emotions, but I have felt relief, gratitude and actually a bit lucky. Over the past few months […]
