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The Torment Of Food Decisions With An Eating Disorder

Wow… those early days of recovery eating could be pure mental torture when it came to trying to make a food decision. The agony and processing that an eating disorder brain will put us through in making a pure and simple choice of what to eat next is not even describable. And the sad thing […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery Rewiring

Regrets? I’ve Had A Few…

“You can’t change the past” –  True. “Looking back with regret is never helpful”…. I am not so sure that one is true. The human body and brain are incredibly sophisticated and clever machines.  Everything they do has a purpose and with that every human emotion has evolved for a reason. Emotions exist to help […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Rewiring

Facing Christmas With An Eating Disorder

“Christmas”…. one little word that can strike sheer terror and deep nostalgic sadness into the heart of anyone with an eating disorder.   A time of year, those of us with eating disorders long to enjoy in the carefree and relaxed way people around us do and in the way we did before we became […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery

The Side Effects Of Eating Disorder Recovery!

It gets worse before it gets better…  The side effects of eating disorder recovery are often unpleasant, frequently distressing and at times just plain brutal! When I started out on this very determined and most definitely final recovery attempt a few months ago,  I jumped into a process of eating disorder recovery that, like treatment […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery

Feeling Grateful And Lucky In Recovery

Throughout this eating disorder recovery journey so far, I have been through a range of emotions, of which many have not been hugely positive…  But now there are days when I actually start to not just feel positive emotions, but I have felt relief, gratitude and actually a bit lucky. Over the past few months […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

The ‘All In’ Debate In Eating Disorder Recovery

Currently, when we talk about recovery from a restrictive eating disorder, the term ‘all in’ is often used. ‘All in’ is usually referring to the notion that a person will eat to their body’s real demands… not to a meal plan or to another form of prescribed amount of food, but to really give in […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery

Loneliness With An Eating Disorder And In Recovery

Loneliness is something I think we all experience in one form or another through having an eating disorder and in recovery but is something we don’t often talk about. Lately, I am not ashamed to admit, I have been feeling really quite lonely at times and although loneliness is not a new concept in my […]

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Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery

Feeling Superhuman When You Have An Eating Disorder

One thing common to many of us when we are in the depths of an eating disorder, is a regular feeling of being superhuman and invincible. We can be malnourished, at a weight far too low for our bodies, have a weak heart, struggling organs and a starved brain and yet feel energetic, mentally alert, […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery

Lost Friends

I don’t know if I am going to be able to put down in words what I feel in my heart about the friendships and relationships that have been victims to this eating disorder. Because, an eating disorder does not just affect the life of those of us who are ill…  it impacts massively on […]

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Eating Disorder Treatment Emotion Recovery

Mental And Physical Illness – Should We Categorise?

Nearly all illnesses that I can think of are categorised into whether they are mental or physical in nature.  However, I am not sure I can think of one illness, large or small that does not have mental and physical consequences on the person. So why, I frequently ask myself, are we so keen to […]