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Emotion Motivation Recovery Rewiring

I Will Celebrate The Fact I Will Recover

Last week Dad bought me this bottle of pink champagne to celebrate something that had happened in my life that should have (and does) offer me hope and will be a way to rebuild my future as I move forwards in recovery. At the point he presented me with the bottle last week I was […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Motivation Recovery

Why I Will Continue No Matter How Hard Recovery Is

I’m currently at a point in recovery where the negative aspects of the process can be intense & overwhelming. The honeymoon phase of enjoying more and new foods & the novelty of recovery actions being a little more possible is well & truly over. It feels the hard work has set in with not even […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Recovery Rewiring

Emotions In Eating Disorder Recovery

Over the past week I’ve been experiencing greater extremes of emotion. Feelings and thoughts that for a decade have been pushed aside, blunted & numbed are bubbling up. This has left me thinking much more about the purpose of our emotions and what happens during an eating disorder and in recovery. Of course emotions do […]

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Emotion Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Recovery

Guilt To No Guilt!

Things I WILL NOT feel guilty about having done yesterday (despite what this eating disorder says!): …– Eating well .– Having a Rocky Road slice out with my mum .– Eating sweet goods .– Ice cream on a warm day . .– Iced buns because I was craving them .– Enjoying Chocolate – Cake – […]

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Emotion Recovery

Being Vulnerable In Recovery To Heal

I’ve been reflecting on the feeling in recovery of having two versions of myself… Every person on this planet has their inner child.. But with an ED and to recover, it is the inner child that needs nurturing for a while: fed, loved & released from the cast iron grip of the illness. I thought […]

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Emotion Recovery

Emotions Returning

A much needed good old fashioned cup of tea goes well with a pain au chocolat and was a temporary moment of relief from what was a highly emotional afternoon and evening. It is definitely true that an eating disorder numbs us of all emotion…I think in the last ten years of illness I felt […]