Over the past week I’ve been experiencing greater extremes of emotion. Feelings and thoughts that for a decade have been pushed aside, blunted & numbed are bubbling up. This has left me thinking much more about the purpose of our emotions and what happens during an eating disorder and in recovery. Of course emotions do […]
Category: Fear & Anxiety In Recovery
“When you’re lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you’ve just wandered off the path, that you’ll find your way back to the trailhead any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have […]
Another symptom of eating disorders that I am sure I am not unique in experiencing and is poorly understood is that the prospect of not eating in my very rigid and safe times, places and ways could be as tormenting as the prospect of eating more or facing fear foods. The eating disorder I have […]
Cold Turkey To Overcome Movement Compulsions?? This is a question I’ve asked myself many times – how we approach stopping exercise & compulsive movement in eating disorder recovery? Cold turkey or gradually decrease? I don’t think there is a one size fits all approach. Recovery is messy & complicated & takes a lot of trial […]
*This post was originally written for my Instagram account* Ideas of how to address lingering restriction in recovery… – Choose the highest cal & most scary option wherever possible. – Ask, ‘What would pre-ED me have eaten?’ – Let the eating disorder chatter away but try to ignore the thoughts & threats. – Notice a […]
I wish recovery was all happy cake eating, coffee shops, smiling moments with loved ones & feeling relaxed lying on the sofa munching pizza & watching Netflix. Reality is different. Yes, there are moments of eating better, cake & pizza, coffee shop trips which can be enjoyable but these are also all associated with feelings […]
Between a rock and a hard place in eating disorder recovery… That’s where I currently feel I’m at in this stage of my recovery journey. The initial stage is almost a honeymoon stage… foods are suddenly more ‘allowed’ as you start to disobey ED rules and eat a bit less restrictively and drive down on […]
A trip out to a new bakery for tea & cake with my mum was just what the doctor ordered… Over the past few weeks in recovery, I have been taking regular coffee shop trips, alone or with someone else, and I have been reflecting on why and how they have been helpful in recovery…. […]
A Post Originally Written For Instagram Towards The Start Of My Recovery: A trip out today for a bit of nourishment…This banana milkshake was the eventual result! This was definitely a harder challenge on more than one level… Firstly, when I ordered it I had no idea what it was going to look like… but […]
A Post Originally Written For Instagram Towards The Start Of My Recovery: It has been an odd day today… I arranged to go and visit my grandparents who are in their 90s this morning and it was important to me to see them and spend time with them. However, I was caught by surprise at […]
A Post Originally Written For Instagram Towards The Start Of My Recovery: Some mornings I wake up and the automatic eating disorder brain pathways are so strong that it can be easy to forget I’m not to follow them and need to walk another path today too and not just yesterday!I therefore have to give […]
A Post Originally Written For Instagram Towards The Start Of My Recovery: We talk a lot about the food side of eating disorder recovery and the new food hurdles we are jumping and delicious cuisine we are enjoying… but we often fail to talk about the fact that recovery is not all fun and games!! […]
Have you ever felt like reaching a full recovery is impossible???Perhaps you can believe it of others but not yourself? Life within the grips of an eating disorder is confusing, overwhelming and frightening but finding a way out is equally mystifying at times and can in dark moments feel impossible. Understanding what life recovered might […]
A Post Originally Written For Instagram Towards The Start Of My Recovery: Eating disorder recovery is exhausting…You have to keep your wits about you at all times. The thoughts of cutting back, being more active, using any small eating disordered behaviour that will keep you stuck can be very sneaky and so automatic that it is […]
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