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Angry Eating

The past few days I have had growing levels of anxiety and tonight it culminated in a bigger scale break down. Tears, frustration, anxiety and ongoing feelings of being very overwhelmed with life and with recovery set in. I sobbed and I hurt deep inside and I felt foggy about what I was even trying […]

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Held Hostage By Food At Home

I wish I could claim to have come up with the phrase of being ‘held hostage’ by the eating disorder with the foods we have at home but I can’t. However, it is something I find myself falling victim to and I think others might relate… This term refers to when you are perhaps food […]

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Hot Dog Snack?? Why Not?

Changing my usual routine today and shaking the ED comfort zone…It feels so hard to do in the moment and caused considerable anxiety but it’s done and I now feel that sense of achievement and that anything is possible, no matter what the eating disorder side of my brain has to say about it!!🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭Decided as […]

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Exposure Therapy

For many people a picture like this of delicious food depicts a happy occasion and a relaxing time… To me, a picture like this depicts hard work, pain and my version of exposure therapy! Most people who first learn that restrictive eating disorder treatment entails having to rest a lot and eat a lot of […]

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Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Fine Tuning In Eating Disorder Recovery

I feel I am at a strange stage in this eating disorder recovery. I have done the early bit where what you have to do is incredibly complicated in an eating disordered mind but really very simple – eat more food, rest and forego behaviours. The what you eat, where, when or how does not […]

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Brain Rewiring Feels Clunky!

They say rewiring the brain is like trying to write with your left hand if you are right handed.  It feels wrong, takes immense concentration and is exhausting… … but slowly you develop the skill. Right now sitting, eating, rewiring to recover feels so wrong… takes more concentration than being a contestant on Mastermind and […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Using A Fast Approach

Over the years I had treatment attempts for my eating disorder using the traditional low and slow approach – always leaving me at partial weight restoration and in a quasi recovery but never getting me recoverED! In treatment it was ingrained that we gain 0.5-1kg a week on meal plans that were restrictive and the […]

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Eating Disorders – The Fear Is Real!

People rarely appreciate the level of real fear we face each day in recovery from an eating disorder. With an eating disorder, our brains perceive anything that might cause weight gain as a direct threat to life and so it needs to do anything to fight it, fly from it or just freeze & hope […]

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My Recovery Mantra!

Warning – use of swearing – don’t read if easily offended!!! Ok… I was never going to post this because I thought it might scare or it might offend people. However, I’m often asked what led me to jump from those murky recover waters we often find ourselves in… That space between in the illness […]

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Fats!!

Today it’s about the FATS!! I regularly try to check in with myself in recovery to work out where I am doing ok, where I am doing well and where I am still letting the eating disorder take too much of an upper hand. I am doing ok at eating a lot more food, resting […]