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Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Rewiring

It’s All About Me Time!!

I don’t know about you but I hate the term ‘self care’ or ‘self love’. For me, I think this irritation with this term actually largely stems from a therapist I once had whose automatic response to just about anything was, ‘be kind to yourself’….  It got to the point that I would be timing […]

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Motivation Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Weight Changes

Throwing Away Old Clothes In Eating Disorder Recovery

I am at that stage of recovery from this eating disorder where the weight gain and body changes that are such a crucial part of the process mean that the clothes that once hung loosely on my unhealthy frame are now either too small or certainly a lot more fitting than they once were! Clothes […]

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Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Rewiring

Compulsive Movement Is Purging!

Why I believe compulsive movement in eating disorders is as serious & needs to be treated as such as any other form of purging… Somebody who purges through vomiting or laxatives to compensate or manage anxiety after eating is performing an action that is difficult for anyone to justify as non-disordered. Those of us who […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Rewiring

Brain Overload!

Over the last two days I really felt I had gone into brain overload. A few things are going on in the background to my life… Things that are stressful for anyone to deal with, let alone when in eating disorder recovery. So with this and trying to keep pushing myself in recovery and continue […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Motivation Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery

Stopping Life For Recovery So Life Doesn’t Stop

Recovery often means taking a break from jobs, careers, academia… Any other serious illness and you wouldn’t question the need to take time off to get well… but with an eating disorder we question it, feel guilty and frequently decide it is unnecessary , that we can do recovery and be a high flyer all […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

Eating Disorder Recovery Using A Fast Approach

Over the years I had treatment attempts for my eating disorder using the traditional low and slow approach – always leaving me at partial weight restoration and in a quasi recovery but never getting me recoverED! In treatment it was ingrained that we gain 0.5-1kg a week on meal plans that were restrictive and the […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring

The Scarcity Mindset And Eating Disorders

This morning I opened a jar of moisturiser given to me as a Christmas present about 3 years ago!! I have always kept a bag filled with my new & special things which I would not allow myself to use… This week I remembered this moisturiser I had stashed away and thought, why not use […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Rewiring

Extreme Exhaustion In Recovery

Last night a strange thing happened in Recovery Nomadsland. I’d spent the day restfully resting i.e proper relaxed resting rather than sitting tensely with my brain on a million things at once! And as I restfully rested, exhaustion hit. My body hurt, my head ached, I felt flulike without the fever and my brain was […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Is The “Permission” To Recover Permanent?

Deep down, all I’ve wanted to do for years is spend time curling up in a blanket, being warm, feeling safe while eating good food… but in the illness this freedom was never ‘allowed’…. Well, not without intense eating disorder generated fear and anxiety attached so it was barely even contemplated. Now I give myself […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery

Guilt When Seen Eating Or Resting In Recovery

An area I still struggle with are feelings of guilt if people see me eat, get food or see me resting. At times I still wait to hear that family have vacated the kitchen before scurrying in to grab my food and eat in private. I know this is another common eating disorder trait, perhaps […]