A Favourite Quote Of M’s First off, I want to say I DO understand that any institutional setting or group program is limited in what it can offer people. Any kind of food service in a group setting has to be structured to meet the needs of staffing limitations and food safety issues. This […]
Category: Other ED Behaviours
One thing common to many of us when we are in the depths of an eating disorder, is a regular feeling of being superhuman and invincible. We can be malnourished, at a weight far too low for our bodies, have a weak heart, struggling organs and a starved brain and yet feel energetic, mentally alert, […]
One of the most common questions about eating disorder recovery that I get a lot and that I asked myself when trying to work out how to approach recovery is do we address all the fears… the eating more food, the resting, the stopping all the other weird s**t we do at the same time..? […]
I don’t know about you but I hate the term ‘self care’ or ‘self love’. For me, I think this irritation with this term actually largely stems from a therapist I once had whose automatic response to just about anything was, ‘be kind to yourself’…. It got to the point that I would be timing […]
I am at that stage of recovery from this eating disorder where the weight gain and body changes that are such a crucial part of the process mean that the clothes that once hung loosely on my unhealthy frame are now either too small or certainly a lot more fitting than they once were! Clothes […]
Why I believe compulsive movement in eating disorders is as serious & needs to be treated as such as any other form of purging… Somebody who purges through vomiting or laxatives to compensate or manage anxiety after eating is performing an action that is difficult for anyone to justify as non-disordered. Those of us who […]
Over the last two days I really felt I had gone into brain overload. A few things are going on in the background to my life… Things that are stressful for anyone to deal with, let alone when in eating disorder recovery. So with this and trying to keep pushing myself in recovery and continue […]
Recovery often means taking a break from jobs, careers, academia… Any other serious illness and you wouldn’t question the need to take time off to get well… but with an eating disorder we question it, feel guilty and frequently decide it is unnecessary , that we can do recovery and be a high flyer all […]
Over the years I had treatment attempts for my eating disorder using the traditional low and slow approach – always leaving me at partial weight restoration and in a quasi recovery but never getting me recoverED! In treatment it was ingrained that we gain 0.5-1kg a week on meal plans that were restrictive and the […]
This morning I opened a jar of moisturiser given to me as a Christmas present about 3 years ago!! I have always kept a bag filled with my new & special things which I would not allow myself to use… This week I remembered this moisturiser I had stashed away and thought, why not use […]
Last night a strange thing happened in Recovery Nomadsland. I’d spent the day restfully resting i.e proper relaxed resting rather than sitting tensely with my brain on a million things at once! And as I restfully rested, exhaustion hit. My body hurt, my head ached, I felt flulike without the fever and my brain was […]
Deep down, all I’ve wanted to do for years is spend time curling up in a blanket, being warm, feeling safe while eating good food… but in the illness this freedom was never ‘allowed’…. Well, not without intense eating disorder generated fear and anxiety attached so it was barely even contemplated. Now I give myself […]
**This post was written originally for my Instagram account** An area I still struggle with are feelings of guilt if people see me eat, get food or see me resting. At times I still wait to hear that family have vacated the kitchen before scurrying in to grab my food and eat in private. I […]
I’ve written in previous posts about lower level movement compulsions in eating disorders & the importance of addressing them in recovery. Facing up to eating more food and weight restoration alone does not a full recovery make! Recovery entails overcoming all the little behaviours and compulsions that have wormed in over the years – some […]
One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]
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