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Feeling Superhuman When You Have An Eating Disorder

One thing common to many of us when we are in the depths of an eating disorder, is a regular feeling of being superhuman and invincible. We can be malnourished, at a weight far too low for our bodies, have a weak heart, struggling organs and a starved brain and yet feel energetic, mentally alert, […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Addressing Food AND Exercise Compulsions In Recovery At The Same Time?

One of the most common questions about eating disorder recovery that I get a lot and that I asked myself when trying to work out how to approach recovery is do we address all the fears… the eating more food, the resting, the stopping all the other weird s**t we do at the same time..? […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Other ED Behaviours Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

It’s All About Me Time!!

I don’t know about you but I hate the term ‘self care’ or ‘self love’. For me, I think this irritation with this term actually largely stems from a therapist I once had whose automatic response to just about anything was, ‘be kind to yourself’….  It got to the point that I would be timing […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Other ED Behaviours Recovery Motivation Weight Changes

Throwing Away Old Clothes In Eating Disorder Recovery

I am at that stage of recovery from this eating disorder where the weight gain and body changes that are such a crucial part of the process mean that the clothes that once hung loosely on my unhealthy frame are now either too small or certainly a lot more fitting than they once were! Clothes […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Other ED Behaviours Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Compulsive Movement Is Purging!

Why I believe compulsive movement in eating disorders is as serious & needs to be treated as such as any other form of purging… Somebody who purges through vomiting or laxatives to compensate or manage anxiety after eating is performing an action that is difficult for anyone to justify as non-disordered. Those of us who […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Brain Overload!

Over the last two days I really felt I had gone into brain overload. A few things are going on in the background to my life… Things that are stressful for anyone to deal with, let alone when in eating disorder recovery. So with this and trying to keep pushing myself in recovery and continue […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Recovery Motivation

Stopping Life For Recovery So Life Doesn’t Stop

Recovery often means taking a break from jobs, careers, academia… Any other serious illness and you wouldn’t question the need to take time off to get well… but with an eating disorder we question it, feel guilty and frequently decide it is unnecessary , that we can do recovery and be a high flyer all […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Using A Fast Approach

Over the years I had treatment attempts for my eating disorder using the traditional low and slow approach – always leaving me at partial weight restoration and in a quasi recovery but never getting me recoverED! In treatment it was ingrained that we gain 0.5-1kg a week on meal plans that were restrictive and the […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

The Scarcity Mindset And Eating Disorders

This morning I opened a jar of moisturiser given to me as a Christmas present about 3 years ago!! I have always kept a bag filled with my new & special things which I would not allow myself to use… This week I remembered this moisturiser I had stashed away and thought, why not use […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Extreme Exhaustion In Recovery

Last night a strange thing happened in Recovery Nomadsland. I’d spent the day restfully resting i.e proper relaxed resting rather than sitting tensely with my brain on a million things at once! And as I restfully rested, exhaustion hit. My body hurt, my head ached, I felt flulike without the fever and my brain was […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Is The “Permission” To Recover Permanent?

Deep down, all I’ve wanted to do for years is spend time curling up in a blanket, being warm, feeling safe while eating good food… but in the illness this freedom was never ‘allowed’…. Well, not without intense eating disorder generated fear and anxiety attached so it was barely even contemplated. Now I give myself […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours

Guilt When Seen Eating Or Resting In Recovery

**This post was written originally for my Instagram account** An area I still struggle with are feelings of guilt if people see me eat, get food or see me resting. At times I still wait to hear that family have vacated the kitchen before scurrying in to grab my food and eat in private. I […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours

Hidden Lower Level Movement Compulsions

I’ve written in previous posts about lower level movement compulsions in eating disorders & the importance of addressing them in recovery.  Facing up to eating more food and weight restoration alone does not a full recovery make! Recovery entails overcoming all the little behaviours and compulsions that have wormed in over the years – some […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Every Small Win In Recovery Counts And Should Be Celebrated!

One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Emotions Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Learnings From Recovery After 3 Months

After two months of starting this recovery, I wrote about what I’d learnt at that point. This is an extension, with the further learnings from month three. At the start of month three I adopted a faster approach & revised plan, which has had its ups & downs but generally proven beneficial! I plan to […]