I recently published my 200th blog post on this website… and I started writing these posts when I was at the start of this eating disorder recovery attempt – a time that feels a long time ago in many ways and yet also like it was yesterday. In fact, it was about 6 months ago! […]
Category: Recovery Motivation
“Christmas”…. one little word that can strike sheer terror and deep nostalgic sadness into the heart of anyone with an eating disorder. A time of year, those of us with eating disorders long to enjoy in the carefree and relaxed way people around us do and in the way we did before we became […]
When it comes to eating disorder recovery, it gets worse before it gets better. The side effects of recovery are often unpleasant, frequently distressing and at times just plain brutal! When I started out on this very determined and most definitely final recovery attempt a few months ago, I jumped into a process of eating […]
Throughout this eating disorder recovery journey so far, I have been through a range of emotions, of which many have not been hugely positive… But now there are days when I actually start to not just feel positive emotions, but I have felt relief, gratitude and actually a bit lucky. Over the past few months […]
Today I went to the theatre on a wild, spontaneous, spur of the moment decision! I’ve always loved live theatre and can still remember the magic of seeing Cats on stage when I was a little girl. Since then the magic of the live stage has always captivated me. Sadly, for many reasons, my enjoyment […]
I really do think that in order to recover fully from an eating disorder, we ultimately have to take responsibility for it ourselves and often a key moment in recovery is when we finally come to realise that. That is not to say that we cannot use support in recovery – of course we not […]
Loneliness is something I think we all experience in one form or another through having an eating disorder and in recovery but is something we don’t often talk about. Lately, I am not ashamed to admit, I have been feeling really quite lonely at times and although loneliness is not a new concept in my […]
Inspired by a recent conversation with a couple of my ED bashing colleagues, I thought I’d write a little post about the importance of changing our actions before expecting our thoughts or beliefs or fears to change. And I believe this is what we call ‘rewiring’, but we talk a lot about rewiring in eating […]
Please can we stop using weight as a marker of diagnosis, severity of illness and recover in eating disorders??
I am not sure if you need to hear this but weight gain is actually ok! Over the past few months, from when I truly started recovery properly, I have gained a reasonable amount of weight and I now have curves and lumps and I have bits of me that are unfamiliar and parts of […]
In this post I thought I would share a bit more about what is happening with me.. I have written before about my background and what led me to start this full on recovery attempt a few months ago (Read More About Me! if you have not!). In that post, I wrote about the fact that I […]
One thing I am finding as I progress through recovery, is that the fears that I needed to force life doors open, or they never would, that I had at the start of recovery or when I was still quite unwell were not grounded. During the years of illness and particularly during the latter years, […]
Over the past week or so I have been experiencing more extremes in my mood and anxiety levels than usual. Some days and evenings I am on a high – life is feeling possible and I feel that the world is opening its doors to me. I want to be in the world and I […]
You know what? I don’t think I’ve eaten a restaurant meal in almost a decade because of my eating disorder and in this last week I have eaten a proper meal in a restaurant without huge anxiety and without compensating and with being able to be present with the company I was with on more […]
A comment that always upsets me when I hear it made about someone with an eating disorder is, ‘…but they don’t want to recover’. According to who does this person afflicted with one of the cruelest and potentially life threatening illnesses not want more from life? I am sure that in the years of my […]
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