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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Lower Level Movement / Exercise Recovery Restriction Weight Changes

One Of The Hardest Stages Of Recovery?

You have committed to recovering, decided you are going to eat and rest more, ‘try’ to accept weight gain (sigh!) and you have set out on making brave changes. You are muddling through how to make yourself eat not just more but ‘enough’…. yet there is also still an intense fear of eating ‘too much’. […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

Angry Eating

The past few days I have had growing levels of anxiety and tonight it culminated in a bigger scale break down. Tears, frustration, anxiety and ongoing feelings of being very overwhelmed with life and with recovery set in. I sobbed and I hurt deep inside and I felt foggy about what I was even trying […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Lower Level Movement / Exercise Recovery Restriction Weight Changes

I Will Tolerate Belly Rolls!

This morning I woke with low rumbling anxiety and my eating disorder brain is using my growing body as it’s ammunition for the day and making my expanding flesh much harder to cope with. This is translating as much stronger urges to restrict, move and avoid anything that could lead to even further weight gain… […]

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Held Hostage By Food At Home

I wish I could claim to have come up with the phrase of being ‘held hostage’ by the eating disorder with the foods we have at home but I can’t. However, it is something I find myself falling victim to and I think others might relate… This term refers to when you are perhaps food […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Fear Foods Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Exposure Therapy

For many people a picture like this of delicious food depicts a happy occasion and a relaxing time… To me, a picture like this depicts hard work, pain and my version of exposure therapy! Most people who first learn that restrictive eating disorder treatment entails having to rest a lot and eat a lot of […]

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Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Fine Tuning In Eating Disorder Recovery

I feel I am at a strange stage in this eating disorder recovery. I have done the early bit where what you have to do is incredibly complicated in an eating disordered mind but really very simple – eat more food, rest and forego behaviours. The what you eat, where, when or how does not […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Brain Rewiring Feels Clunky!

They say rewiring the brain is like trying to write with your left hand if you are right handed.  It feels wrong, takes immense concentration and is exhausting… … but slowly you develop the skill. Right now sitting, eating, rewiring to recover feels so wrong… takes more concentration than being a contestant on Mastermind and […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

Eating Disorder Recovery Using A Fast Approach

Over the years I had treatment attempts for my eating disorder using the traditional low and slow approach – always leaving me at partial weight restoration and in a quasi recovery but never getting me recoverED! In treatment it was ingrained that we gain 0.5-1kg a week on meal plans that were restrictive and the […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring

The Scarcity Mindset And Eating Disorders

This morning I opened a jar of moisturiser given to me as a Christmas present about 3 years ago!! I have always kept a bag filled with my new & special things which I would not allow myself to use… This week I remembered this moisturiser I had stashed away and thought, why not use […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Fear Foods Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

My Recovery Mantra!

Warning – use of swearing – don’t read if easily offended!!! Ok… I was never going to post this because I thought it might scare or it might offend people. However, I’m often asked what led me to jump from those murky recover waters we often find ourselves in… That space between in the illness […]