Curiosity in Eating Disorder Recovery. Having recently made more progress in recovery – in being able to make changes – eat more, accept weight gain at any rate and generally feel more relaxed and determined on putting in the necessary recovery action, I have been evaluating what it is that has changed in my approach. […]
Category: Rewiring / Neuroplasticity
Posts related to the rewiring (neuroplasticity) process in eating disorder recovery.
Last night I watched The King’s Speech. It’s a film I have wanted to see since it came out 9 years ago! Films are one thing I have missed out a lot on during the years of having an Eating Disorder & I know that I am far from alone in that. The primary reason […]
So often in eating disorder recovery we hear people advocate to just ‘let go’ of the illness or claiming that they are ‘letting go’ in their recovery. For a long time I’ve longed to ‘let go’. It sounded liberating, joyous & like a weight would lift from suffocating my life & drift away! But I […]
Should we be ‘normal’ in recovery? Earlier today, I had a comment that I’ve been visiting a lot of coffee shops, with the question raised of whether this was a ‘normal’ thing to do. The question got me thinking & it did get me wanting to respond with a thought I often have about eating […]
What a difference one week can make. This time last week I was an emotional wreck. I had hit a recovery wall. I felt very lost, confused & overwhelmed. I was convinced I would not recover. I was very low. Last Friday evening my anxiety & distress peaked & I had my first (& I […]
Eating Disorder Threats: Are They Real? Maybe! I think the thing that keeps me & others trapped in an eating disorder, preventing full recovery, is believing the threats ED generates. ‘If you eat that then you must restrict & compensate later.’ ‘Rest now & you will pay later as I won’t let you eat or […]
Last week Dad bought me this bottle of pink champagne to celebrate something that had happened in my life that should have (and does) offer me hope and will be a way to rebuild my future as I move forwards in recovery. At the point he presented me with the bottle last week I was […]
Today’s custard slice. Yes, I have eaten these before…. However, this custard slice reflected another step in my eating disorder recovery. This week, I have gone from despair, high anxiety and at times barely tolerable distress to establishing a new plan and recovery commitment within myself that has left me in a much calmer state […]
It’s two months today since I set up my Instagram recovery account and a lot has changed in that time. I thought I’d take this opportunity to share some of the things I’ve learnt in recovery so far… – When anxiety is rising it’s usually because the ED has become more powerful, I’m engaging in […]
Giving up compulsive movement in ED recovery is HARD! For those with compulsive movement/ exercise tendencies, stopping could be compared to an addict coming off heroin & that is not an exaggeration! I’ve found attempts to reduce activity levels to minimal amounts, while not reducing food intake, the hardest thing I’ve done in my life.. […]
Oh to one day be able to mindlessly eat a sandwich like this and it be such a normal part of the day that if someone asks what I had for lunch I have to spend a few moments to remember! I have to believe that day will come. But today having this sandwich was […]
Over the past week I’ve been experiencing greater extremes of emotion. Feelings and thoughts that for a decade have been pushed aside, blunted & numbed are bubbling up. This has left me thinking much more about the purpose of our emotions and what happens during an eating disorder and in recovery. Of course emotions do […]
“When you’re lost in those woods, it sometimes takes you a while to realize that you are lost. For the longest time, you can convince yourself that you’ve just wandered off the path, that you’ll find your way back to the trailhead any moment now. Then night falls again and again, and you still have […]
Another symptom of eating disorders that I am sure I am not unique in experiencing and is poorly understood is that the prospect of not eating in my very rigid and safe times, places and ways could be as tormenting as the prospect of eating more or facing fear foods. The eating disorder I have […]
Cold Turkey To Overcome Movement Compulsions?? This is a question I’ve asked myself many times – how we approach stopping exercise & compulsive movement in eating disorder recovery? Cold turkey or gradually decrease? I don’t think there is a one size fits all approach. Recovery is messy & complicated & takes a lot of trial […]
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