If you have a restrictive eating disorder and you are a young woman, then there is a chance you don’t have a normal menstrual cycle and quite possibly experience what is known as hypothalamic amenorrhoea. Perhaps you have a hit and miss irregular cycle or maybe you have not had a period for some time […]
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A personal post… When I was going through my early stage of intense recovery last year, I stayed with my parents for a few months. And although I owned my recovery, my parents were there, providing emotional support and regrettably (for me now) taking the brunt of the pure, raw and very real emotions that […]
This post is a sharp reality hit about eating disorder recovery. I write this post because recognising how real and unavoidable this truth is, if full recovery is ever to actually be realised, took me far too many years in my recovery but it need not be so for others. And the truth I want […]
This post is called, ‘Words Matter In Eating Disorder Recovery’ but actually the words we use in day to day life matter in everything, all the time! So, although in this post, I will be relating how we use words and language to talk or think about ourselves or our lives in respect to eating […]
***This is a general post aimed at absolutely anyone who owns a brain, not just people with eating disorders!!*** Having recently started a course on neuroscience and brain health – I may be writing a bit more on this in the coming weeks. I find the brain absolutely fascinating. It is the most important organ […]
Up until now I have resisted writing much about the Covid-19 pandemic sweeping the world but it has reached a point that it is impacting on all of us across the globe and impossible to ignore. I actually feel lucky in many ways to have reached the stage of recovery I have as I know […]
Wow… those early days of recovery eating could be pure mental torture when it came to trying to make a food decision. The agony and processing that an eating disorder brain will put us through in making a pure and simple choice of what to eat next is not even describable. And the sad thing […]
This morning I woke up to the best message ever in my inbox… a message from another woman, of a similar age to me, who has had anorexia for years, telling me, “Today is the day… I am doing it!!”. … Yes, after a turbulent few days of indecision she is taking the terrifying and […]
You have committed to recovering, decided you are going to eat and rest more, ‘try’ to accept weight gain (sigh!) and you have set out on making brave changes. You are muddling through how to make yourself eat not just more but ‘enough’…. yet there is also still an intense fear of eating ‘too much’. […]
This morning I woke with low rumbling anxiety and my eating disorder brain is using my growing body as it’s ammunition for the day and making my expanding flesh much harder to cope with. This is translating as much stronger urges to restrict, move and avoid anything that could lead to even further weight gain… […]
My anxiety over the past few days has been rising again, after a couple of weeks where it had been lower than ever – and not because the eating disorder was winning! The return of the anxiety was an unwelcome surprise a few days ago and instead of abating again as I hoped it would, […]
This morning I opened a jar of moisturiser given to me as a Christmas present about 3 years ago!! I have always kept a bag filled with my new & special things which I would not allow myself to use… This week I remembered this moisturiser I had stashed away and thought, why not use […]
Today it’s about the FATS!! I regularly try to check in with myself in recovery to work out where I am doing ok, where I am doing well and where I am still letting the eating disorder take too much of an upper hand. I am doing ok at eating a lot more food, resting […]
**This post was written originally for my Instagram account** An area I still struggle with are feelings of guilt if people see me eat, get food or see me resting. At times I still wait to hear that family have vacated the kitchen before scurrying in to grab my food and eat in private. I […]
One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]
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