I wrote this post almost a year ago but did not publish it. It is about a state in recovery that has been present at various points in the recovery process… It is one that can trigger all kinds of feelings and judgements (including guilt, wrong-doing, shame, frustration) if we allow it to. This is […]
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“You can’t change the past” – True. “Looking back with regret is never helpful”…. I am not so sure that one is true. The human body and brain are incredibly sophisticated and clever machines. Everything they do has a purpose and with that every human emotion has evolved for a reason. Emotions exist to help […]
When it comes to eating disorder recovery, it gets worse before it gets better. The side effects of recovery are often unpleasant, frequently distressing and at times just plain brutal! When I started out on this very determined and most definitely final recovery attempt a few months ago, I jumped into a process of eating […]
Throughout this eating disorder recovery journey so far, I have been through a range of emotions, of which many have not been hugely positive… But now there are days when I actually start to not just feel positive emotions, but I have felt relief, gratitude and actually a bit lucky. Over the past few months […]
Lately I’ve had more symptoms of depression in this eating disorder recovery. This is not unusual, it would be rare to go through ED recovery without experiencing a low mood! Within an ED, most people have some depression: living in the hollow, cold, isolated & tormented world of illness brings little joy, although when sick […]
The past few days I have had growing levels of anxiety and tonight it culminated in a bigger scale break down. Tears, frustration, anxiety and ongoing feelings of being very overwhelmed with life and with recovery set in. I sobbed and I hurt deep inside and I felt foggy about what I was even trying […]
It is interesting how a certain place can trigger emotions and memories and just being back there can bring things flooding back. Earlier today I had to do something in the next town to where I’m currently living with my family. This meant retuning to a place that holds many memories… These include happy pre […]
Well, it turns out that at times a little hysteria really does help. Lately in recovery I’ve been getting higher levels of anxiety than I was… I have always had anxiety with eating and resting more, gaining weight etc but the past week or so it had been escalating. I know that in recovery it […]
Hitting a little low patch… Throughout this recovery so far, it’s been an emotional rollercoaster but the past 2 days have been tougher than my usual dips. Tears, anxiety, frustration, anger & general pissed off-edness had become my norm, intermixed with feelings of exhilaration, achievement, success & even occasional playfulness! Lately things have been improving […]
Oh to one day be able to mindlessly eat a sandwich like this and it be such a normal part of the day that if someone asks what I had for lunch I have to spend a few moments to remember! I have to believe that day will come. But today having this sandwich was […]
Over the past week I’ve been experiencing greater extremes of emotion. Feelings and thoughts that for a decade have been pushed aside, blunted & numbed are bubbling up. This has left me thinking much more about the purpose of our emotions and what happens during an eating disorder and in recovery. Of course emotions do […]
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Emotions Returning
A Post Originally Written For Instagram Towards The Start Of My Recovery: A much needed good old fashioned cup of tea goes well with a pain au chocolat and was a temporary moment of relief from what was a highly emotional afternoon and evening. It is definitely true that an eating disorder numbs us of […]
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