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Emotion Motivation Recovery Rewiring

Regrets? I’ve Had A Few…

“You can’t change the past” –  True. “Looking back with regret is never helpful”…. I am not so sure that one is true. The human body and brain are incredibly sophisticated and clever machines.  Everything they do has a purpose and with that every human emotion has evolved for a reason. Emotions exist to help […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery

The Side Effects Of Eating Disorder Recovery!

It gets worse before it gets better…  The side effects of eating disorder recovery are often unpleasant, frequently distressing and at times just plain brutal! When I started out on this very determined and most definitely final recovery attempt a few months ago,  I jumped into a process of eating disorder recovery that, like treatment […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery

Feeling Grateful And Lucky In Recovery

Throughout this eating disorder recovery journey so far, I have been through a range of emotions, of which many have not been hugely positive…  But now there are days when I actually start to not just feel positive emotions, but I have felt relief, gratitude and actually a bit lucky. Over the past few months […]

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Emotion Recovery

Low Mood / Depression In Recovery

Lately I’ve had more symptoms of depression in this eating disorder recovery. This is not unusual, it would be rare to go through ED recovery without experiencing a low mood! Within an ED, most people have some depression: living in the hollow, cold, isolated & tormented world of illness brings little joy, although when sick […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

Angry Eating

The past few days I have had growing levels of anxiety and tonight it culminated in a bigger scale break down. Tears, frustration, anxiety and ongoing feelings of being very overwhelmed with life and with recovery set in. I sobbed and I hurt deep inside and I felt foggy about what I was even trying […]

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Emotion Recovery

Grieving The Past In Recovery

It is interesting how a certain place can trigger emotions and memories and just being back there can bring things flooding back. Earlier today I had to do something in the next town to where I’m currently living with my family. This meant retuning to a place that holds many memories… These include happy pre […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Recovery Rewiring

Hysteria In Recovery!

Well, it turns out that at times a little hysteria really does help. Lately in recovery I’ve been getting higher levels of anxiety than I was… I have always had anxiety with eating and resting more, gaining weight etc but the past week or so it had been escalating. I know that in recovery it […]

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Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Why The Low Mood?

Hitting a little low patch… Throughout this recovery so far, it’s been an emotional rollercoaster but the past 2 days have been tougher than my usual dips. Tears, anxiety, frustration, anger & general pissed off-edness had become my norm, intermixed with feelings of exhilaration, achievement, success & even occasional playfulness! Lately things have been improving […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Fear Foods Recovery Rewiring

Panic From A Sandwich!

Oh to one day be able to mindlessly eat a sandwich like this and it be such a normal part of the day that if someone asks what I had for lunch I have to spend a few moments to remember! I have to believe that day will come. But today having this sandwich was […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Recovery Rewiring

Emotions In Eating Disorder Recovery

Over the past week I’ve been experiencing greater extremes of emotion. Feelings and thoughts that for a decade have been pushed aside, blunted & numbed are bubbling up. This has left me thinking much more about the purpose of our emotions and what happens during an eating disorder and in recovery. Of course emotions do […]