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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Helping Family / Carers Understand Recovery

Raw Recovery Emotions And Loved Ones

A personal post… When I was going through my early stage of intense recovery last year, I stayed with my parents for a few months. And although I owned my recovery, my parents were there, providing emotional support and regrettably (for me now) taking the brunt of the pure, raw and very real emotions that […]

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Motivation Recovery Rewiring

Eating Disorder Recovery – A CheerLeading Post!

If you are here now, reading recovery blogs online and you have an eating disorder then you are already a superhero because whether you have taken any other positive steps into recovery yet or not, you are obviously not just accepting life in the illness and at the very least, you are contemplating the terrifying […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery

Loneliness With An Eating Disorder And In Recovery

Loneliness is something I think we all experience in one form or another through having an eating disorder and in recovery but is something we don’t often talk about. Lately, I am not ashamed to admit, I have been feeling really quite lonely at times and although loneliness is not a new concept in my […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery

Lost Friends

I don’t know if I am going to be able to put down in words what I feel in my heart about the friendships and relationships that have been victims to this eating disorder. Because, an eating disorder does not just affect the life of those of us who are ill…  it impacts massively on […]

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Emotion Recovery Weight Changes

Grieving The Thin / Underweight Body In Recovery

Yesterday I wrote about throwing my old / anorexic clothes away as I gain back a healthy body in this eating disorder recovery and the emotions that that has raised in me. One of the emotions that has come up is a form of grief for my old, sick, thin, ‘anorexic’ body… and I thought […]

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Emotion Recovery

Low Mood / Depression In Recovery

Lately I’ve had more symptoms of depression in this eating disorder recovery. This is not unusual, it would be rare to go through ED recovery without experiencing a low mood! Within an ED, most people have some depression: living in the hollow, cold, isolated & tormented world of illness brings little joy, although when sick […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Recovery Rewiring Weight Changes

Anxiety Rising… But Why?

My anxiety over the past few days has been rising again, after a couple of weeks where it had been lower than ever – and not because the eating disorder was winning! The return of the anxiety was an unwelcome surprise a few days ago and instead of abating again as I hoped it would, […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery

Guilt When Seen Eating Or Resting In Recovery

An area I still struggle with are feelings of guilt if people see me eat, get food or see me resting. At times I still wait to hear that family have vacated the kitchen before scurrying in to grab my food and eat in private. I know this is another common eating disorder trait, perhaps […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

Every Small Win In Recovery Counts And Should Be Celebrated!

One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]

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Emotion Recovery

Grieving The Past In Recovery

It is interesting how a certain place can trigger emotions and memories and just being back there can bring things flooding back. Earlier today I had to do something in the next town to where I’m currently living with my family. This meant retuning to a place that holds many memories… These include happy pre […]