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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Helping Family / Carers Understand

No Shame To An Eating Disorder

Too frequently, I see people with eating disorders who are bravely attempting recovery from this all consuming, life changing and poorly understood illness, express shame. They feel ashamed that they have an eating disorder in the first instance, ashamed of what the illness has done to their life or the impact it has had on […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Helping Family / Carers Understand

Raw Recovery Emotions And Loved Ones

A personal post… When I was going through my early stage of intense recovery last year, I stayed with my parents for a few months. And although I owned my recovery, my parents were there, providing emotional support and regrettably (for me now) taking the brunt of the pure, raw and very real emotions that […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Recovery Motivation Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Eating Disorder Recovery – A CheerLeading Post!

If you are here now, reading recovery blogs online and you have an eating disorder then you are already a superhero because whether you have taken any other positive steps into recovery yet or not, you are obviously not just accepting life in the illness and at the very least, you are contemplating the terrifying […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Recovery Motivation

Loneliness With An Eating Disorder And In Recovery

Loneliness is something I think we all experience in one form or another through having an eating disorder and in recovery but is something we don’t often talk about. Lately, I am not ashamed to admit, I have been feeling really quite lonely at times and although loneliness is not a new concept in my […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Recovery Motivation

Lost Friends

I don’t know if I am going to be able to put down in words what I feel in my heart about the friendships and relationships that have been victims to this eating disorder. Because, an eating disorder does not just affect the life of those of us who are ill…  it impacts massively on […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Weight Changes

Grieving The Thin / Underweight Body In Recovery

Yesterday I wrote about throwing my old / anorexic clothes away as I gain back a healthy body in this eating disorder recovery and the emotions that that has raised in me. One of the emotions that has come up is a form of grief for my old, sick, thin, ‘anorexic’ body… and I thought […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions

Low Mood / Depression In Recovery

Lately I’ve had more symptoms of depression in this eating disorder recovery. This is not unusual, it would be rare to go through ED recovery without experiencing a low mood! Within an ED, most people have some depression: living in the hollow, cold, isolated & tormented world of illness brings little joy, although when sick […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Anxiety Rising… But Why?

My anxiety over the past few days has been rising again, after a couple of weeks where it had been lower than ever – and not because the eating disorder was winning! The return of the anxiety was an unwelcome surprise a few days ago and instead of abating again as I hoped it would, […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours

Guilt When Seen Eating Or Resting In Recovery

**This post was written originally for my Instagram account** An area I still struggle with are feelings of guilt if people see me eat, get food or see me resting. At times I still wait to hear that family have vacated the kitchen before scurrying in to grab my food and eat in private. I […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Every Small Win In Recovery Counts And Should Be Celebrated!

One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions

Grieving The Past In Recovery

It is interesting how a certain place can trigger emotions and memories and just being back there can bring things flooding back. Earlier today I had to do something in the next town to where I’m currently living with my family. This meant retuning to a place that holds many memories… These include happy pre […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Emotions Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Learnings From Recovery After 3 Months

After two months of starting this recovery, I wrote about what I’d learnt at that point. This is an extension, with the further learnings from month three. At the start of month three I adopted a faster approach & revised plan, which has had its ups & downs but generally proven beneficial! I plan to […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Recovery Motivation

Severe And Enduring Eating Disorders (SEED)

Being diagnosed with an eating disorder is not a joyous occasion but it provides a medical reasoning for the food rules, anxieties, behaviours, weight manipulation & feeling of craziness that an eating disorder brings to our lives. Once diagnosed we can feel relief & hope – now diagnosed, surely treatment can help us get better? […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Weight Changes

The Confusion Of Weight Gain

In this post I’m going to talk a bit about weight changes in eating disorder recovery, so although I don’t mention numbers, if weight issues trigger you then don’t read! Weight & this eating disorder is an issue I find confusing. Having first developed an eating disorder as an adult, I was in a body […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery

Tough And Emotional Days

I try to keep my posts here honest & so today I want to be open about my last day or so… Over the past week or more I have adopted a new recovery approach, taken on a new mindset & it has been going really well.. I’ve been making more progress than I ever […]