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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Helping Family / Carers Understand Recovery

Raw Recovery Emotions And Loved Ones

A personal post… When I was going through my early stage of intense recovery last year, I stayed with my parents for a few months. And although I owned my recovery, my parents were there, providing emotional support and regrettably (for me now) taking the brunt of the pure, raw and very real emotions that […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Helping Family / Carers Understand Recovery Rewiring

No Pain, No Gain In Eating Disorder Recovery

This post is a sharp reality hit about eating disorder recovery. I write this post because recognising how real and unavoidable this truth is, if full recovery is ever to actually be realised, took me far too many years in my recovery but it need not be so for others. And the truth I want […]

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Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery

‘Martyr Complex’ In Eating Disorders

Within an eating disorder, the ‘martyr complex’, in which people will act like a martyr to the point of self destruction is a feature seen more often than not. ‘Martyr complex’ is a recognised term to describe people who seek out the feeling of being a martyr, putting others needs above their own suffering as […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Rewiring Weight Changes

“Quasi Recovery” – An Inevitability In Eating Disorder Recovery?

Is the dreaded ‘quasi-recovery’ an inevitability in the recovery process from an eating disorder? This is a question that occurred to me recently. Before I continue though, for those who are not aware of this term, ‘quasi recovery’ refers to the half-way (or maybe a bit more than half-way) recovery state that many people hit […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Rewiring Weight Changes

Things I Wish I Had Known When I First Developed Anorexia….

When I first became ill with anorexia nervosa, I was a 27 year old woman who had never had any form of disordered eating, history of dieting or weight manipulation and I was at a stage in my life where I felt happy and settled.  Therefore finding myself with a severe eating disorder was a […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery Rewiring

Regrets? I’ve Had A Few…

“You can’t change the past” –  True. “Looking back with regret is never helpful”…. I am not so sure that one is true. The human body and brain are incredibly sophisticated and clever machines.  Everything they do has a purpose and with that every human emotion has evolved for a reason. Emotions exist to help […]

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Emotion Motivation Recovery

Loneliness With An Eating Disorder And In Recovery

Loneliness is something I think we all experience in one form or another through having an eating disorder and in recovery but is something we don’t often talk about. Lately, I am not ashamed to admit, I have been feeling really quite lonely at times and although loneliness is not a new concept in my […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Lower Level Movement / Exercise Recovery Rewiring

Those Around Us Unintentionally Colluding With The Eating Disorder

With an eating disorder, when sick or when recovering, one of the most frustrating and sometimes hurtful things that can happen, is when people around us unintentionally collude with the eating disorder. Those close to us – relatives or friends can be guilty of this, as can health professionals whose job it is to know […]

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Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

Going Life Mad And A Little Bit Crazy In Recovery!!

You know what?  I don’t think I’ve eaten a restaurant meal in almost a decade because of my eating disorder and in this last week I have eaten a proper meal in a restaurant without huge anxiety and without compensating and with being able to be present with the company I was with on more […]

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Emotion Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery

Feeling Superhuman When You Have An Eating Disorder

One thing common to many of us when we are in the depths of an eating disorder, is a regular feeling of being superhuman and invincible. We can be malnourished, at a weight far too low for our bodies, have a weak heart, struggling organs and a starved brain and yet feel energetic, mentally alert, […]