Many of us with an eating disorder are told (probably because it is true) that we have very black and white thinking. I do not believe that the black and white mindset is a pre-existing ‘personality trait’ of a person with an eating disorder, which some ‘professionals’ might try to persuade us is the case, […]
Tag: fast not slow
This morning I woke up to the best message ever in my inbox… a message from another woman, of a similar age to me, who has had anorexia for years, telling me, “Today is the day… I am doing it!!”. … Yes, after a turbulent few days of indecision she is taking the terrifying and […]
In my last post I wrote about the reflections that I had been making on my eating disorder recovery so far – where I was at the start of this journey and where I am now in recovery and life terms. And I suppose, the truth is that yes, I’ve come a bloody long way […]
Currently, when we talk about recovery from a restrictive eating disorder, the term ‘all in’ is often used. ‘All in’ is usually referring to the notion that a person will eat to their body’s real demands… not to a meal plan or to another form of prescribed amount of food, but to really give in […]
Over the past week or so my anxiety has risen, my mood dropped, life has felt more overwhelming than it has for a long time and I have felt more physically and mentally exhausted. Doing battle with the illness in each moment has been much more of an uphill struggle and I had become filled […]
The past few days I have had growing levels of anxiety and tonight it culminated in a bigger scale break down. Tears, frustration, anxiety and ongoing feelings of being very overwhelmed with life and with recovery set in. I sobbed and I hurt deep inside and I felt foggy about what I was even trying […]
I feel I am at a strange stage in this eating disorder recovery. I have done the early bit where what you have to do is incredibly complicated in an eating disordered mind but really very simple – eat more food, rest and forego behaviours. The what you eat, where, when or how does not […]
Over the years I had treatment attempts for my eating disorder using the traditional low and slow approach – always leaving me at partial weight restoration and in a quasi recovery but never getting me recoverED! In treatment it was ingrained that we gain 0.5-1kg a week on meal plans that were restrictive and the […]
One thing about eating disorder recovery I have noticed is that I can and I have aimed to do recovery action all in one go- eat freely, rest like a sloth all day, feel fine about gaining weight and as a result heal my brain and body. This is the ideal! If I could have […]
Last night a strange thing happened in Recovery Nomadsland. I’d spent the day restfully resting i.e proper relaxed resting rather than sitting tensely with my brain on a million things at once! And as I restfully rested, exhaustion hit. My body hurt, my head ached, I felt flulike without the fever and my brain was […]
