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No Pain, No Gain In Eating Disorder Recovery

This post is a sharp reality hit about eating disorder recovery. I write this post because recognising how real and unavoidable this truth is, if full recovery is ever to actually be realised, took me far too many years in my recovery but it need not be so for others. And the truth I want […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery – “Tell Me How To Recover!!”

How many times did I seek the magic answer to eating disorder recovery over my years of illness? How many times have I been asked the question or asked it myself of others, ‘…but HOW?!?’. “But HOW do I eat more / rest more / stop my weird and not so wonderful eating disorder behaviours […]

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Eating Disorders – The Fear Is Real!

People rarely appreciate the level of real fear we face each day in recovery from an eating disorder. With an eating disorder, our brains perceive anything that might cause weight gain as a direct threat to life and so it needs to do anything to fight it, fly from it or just freeze & hope […]

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I Will Start Recovery When…

I’ll do recovery when… There are many thought patterns we all fall into the pits of with an eating disorder… ways that the ED will keep us stuck and hold us prisoner. One of these, I noticed I was sliding into this morning. The good old – if this perfect set of circumstances were to […]

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Don’t Tell Me To Keep Calm!

The reality of eating disorder recovery!! I received a sign today from my Mum that said on it, “Don’t Tell Me To Keep Calm’! Despite (in theory!!) being a grown adult woman, I returned to live with my parents recently in order to have support & give myself a better chance at recovery… It was […]

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Learnings In Recovery Thus Far…

It’s two months today since I set up my Instagram recovery account and a lot has changed in that time. I thought I’d take this opportunity to share some of the things I’ve learnt in recovery so far… – When anxiety is rising it’s usually because the ED has become more powerful, I’m engaging in […]

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Panic From A Sandwich!

Oh to one day be able to mindlessly eat a sandwich like this and it be such a normal part of the day that if someone asks what I had for lunch I have to spend a few moments to remember! I have to believe that day will come. But today having this sandwich was […]

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Emotions In Eating Disorder Recovery

Over the past week I’ve been experiencing greater extremes of emotion. Feelings and thoughts that for a decade have been pushed aside, blunted & numbed are bubbling up. This has left me thinking much more about the purpose of our emotions and what happens during an eating disorder and in recovery. Of course emotions do […]

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No More Comfort Zones

At the moment in this recovery journey I feel so far out of my comfort zone it’s untrue!However, I also hold on to the fact that if it is feeling terrifying then it should be doing good. I do keep framing recovery actions in my mind as having to make that decision to jump out […]

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Walk Into The Fear

Eating disorder recovery is exhausting…You have to keep your wits about you at all times. The thoughts of cutting back, being more active, using any small ED behaviour that will keep you stuck can be very sneaky and so automatic that it’s hard to spot them.……An eating disorder causes an irrational but very real and very […]