One thing I am finding as I progress through recovery, is that the fears that I needed to force life doors open, or they never would, that I had at the start of recovery or when I was still quite unwell were not grounded. During the years of illness and particularly during the latter years, […]
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A comment that always upsets me when I hear it made about someone with an eating disorder is, ‘…but they don’t want to recover’. According to who does this person afflicted with one of the cruelest and potentially life threatening illnesses not want more from life? I am sure that in the years of my […]
The past couple of weeks have not been easy in recovery. I have had increased anxiety and a drop in mood across some of the days and it has been a bit more dippy in the recovery rollercoaster than it was for a while. Things have been feeling tougher again and the prospect of keeping […]
With this eating disorder and in recovery there are so many times I have wanted to give up… When the illness felt too much to keep living with, the process of recovery too hard and too impossible and the hope of anything different felt out of reach. But somehow I held on. Despite some […]
After two months of starting this recovery, I wrote about what I’d learnt at that point. This is an extension, with the further learnings from month three. At the start of month three I adopted a faster approach & revised plan, which has had its ups & downs but generally proven beneficial! I plan to […]
Being diagnosed with an eating disorder is not a joyous occasion but it provides a medical reasoning for the food rules, anxieties, behaviours, weight manipulation & feeling of craziness that an eating disorder brings to our lives. Once diagnosed we can feel relief & hope – now diagnosed, surely treatment can help us get better? […]
Earlier this week there was devastating news about the death of a young woman from anorexia – an incredible young woman who was a valued member of the eating disorder recovery community I belong to. The new of Lilli’s death has affected me deeply & more than similar tragedies have in recent years. I think this […]
Recovery First: Putting life on hold to get well can be an important decision. One thing that pushed me to put my life on hold to recover was hitting the age of 40 this year & the reality hit of just how sick I was & how, despite being functional, the illness was trapping me: […]
A week ago I started a new recovery approach. After a few weeks of high anxiety levels, distress & to-ing & fro-ing with the ‘right way’ to do recovery I needed to find a way through. I don’t work with ‘specialists’ or under medical guidance & my route to recovery is my own messy & […]
What a difference one week can make. This time last week I was an emotional wreck. I had hit a recovery wall. I felt very lost, confused & overwhelmed. I was convinced I would not recover. I was very low. Last Friday evening my anxiety & distress peaked & I had my first (& I […]
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