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Moving On… Quite Literally!

In this post I thought I would share a bit more about what is happening with me.. I have written before about my background and what led me to start this full on recovery attempt a few months ago (Read More About Me! if you have not!). In that post, I wrote about the fact that I […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Weight Changes

Grieving The Thin / Underweight Body In Recovery

Yesterday I wrote about throwing my old / anorexic clothes away as I gain back a healthy body in this eating disorder recovery and the emotions that that has raised in me. One of the emotions that has come up is a form of grief for my old, sick, thin, ‘anorexic’ body… and I thought […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Anxiety Rising… But Why?

My anxiety over the past few days has been rising again, after a couple of weeks where it had been lower than ever – and not because the eating disorder was winning! The return of the anxiety was an unwelcome surprise a few days ago and instead of abating again as I hoped it would, […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Exposure Therapy

For many people a picture like this of delicious food depicts a happy occasion and a relaxing time… To me, a picture like this depicts hard work, pain and my version of exposure therapy! Most people who first learn that restrictive eating disorder treatment entails having to rest a lot and eat a lot of […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Fine Tuning In Eating Disorder Recovery

I feel I am at a strange stage in this eating disorder recovery. I have done the early bit where what you have to do is incredibly complicated in an eating disordered mind but really very simple – eat more food, rest and forego behaviours. The what you eat, where, when or how does not […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

Extreme Exhaustion In Recovery

Last night a strange thing happened in Recovery Nomadsland. I’d spent the day restfully resting i.e proper relaxed resting rather than sitting tensely with my brain on a million things at once! And as I restfully rested, exhaustion hit. My body hurt, my head ached, I felt flulike without the fever and my brain was […]

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Every Small Win In Recovery Counts And Should Be Celebrated!

One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]

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Learnings From Recovery After 3 Months

After two months of starting this recovery, I wrote about what I’d learnt at that point. This is an extension, with the further learnings from month three. At the start of month three I adopted a faster approach & revised plan, which has had its ups & downs but generally proven beneficial! I plan to […]

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Fear Of Being Underfed In Recovery

When accepting help creates terror but it’s not why you think. I have just had one of those dawning moments that make some of the recovery fears a little clearer. I consider myself an inadvertent victim of the traditional treatment I’ve received ‘help’ from in the past. Models where meal plans were barely adequate to […]

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Using Curiosity In Recovery

Curiosity in Eating Disorder Recovery. Having recently made more progress in recovery – in being able to make changes – eat more, accept weight gain at any rate and generally feel more relaxed and determined on putting in the necessary recovery action, I have been evaluating what it is that has changed in my approach. […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Recovery Motivation Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

I Will Celebrate The Fact I Will Recover

Last week Dad bought me this bottle of pink champagne to celebrate something that had happened in my life that should have (and does) offer me hope and will be a way to rebuild my future as I move forwards in recovery. At the point he presented me with the bottle last week I was […]

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Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity

A Custard Slice That Represents Change!

Today’s custard slice. Yes, I have eaten these before…. However, this custard slice reflected another step in my eating disorder recovery. This week, I have gone from despair, high anxiety and at times barely tolerable distress to establishing a new plan and recovery commitment within myself that has left me in a much calmer state […]

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I Ate A Whole Pizza!

This pizza was part of lunch yesterday… Yes, yesterday I ate the whole pizza and felt confident and not overly anxious about doing so. I did not compensate before or after. Could I have done this two weeks ago, let alone two months ago ?? NO way!! This marks progress for me and I feel […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Learnings In Recovery Thus Far…

It’s two months today since I set up my Instagram recovery account and a lot has changed in that time. I thought I’d take this opportunity to share some of the things I’ve learnt in recovery so far… – When anxiety is rising it’s usually because the ED has become more powerful, I’m engaging in […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Other ED Behaviours

Food That Is Less Than Perfect!

A Post Originally Written For Instagram Towards The Start Of My Recovery: A new flavour of Cadbury chocolate out at the moment in the UK. I’m a big fan of chocolate and Cadbury’s and I also enjoy a latte so when I saw this flavour I was quite excited to try it, expecting it to […]