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Moving On… Quite Literally!

In this post I thought I would share a bit more about what is happening with me.. I have written before about my background and what led me to start this full on recovery attempt a few months ago (Read More About Me! if you have not!). In that post, I wrote about the fact that I […]

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Emotion Recovery Weight Changes

Grieving The Thin / Underweight Body In Recovery

Yesterday I wrote about throwing my old / anorexic clothes away as I gain back a healthy body in this eating disorder recovery and the emotions that that has raised in me. One of the emotions that has come up is a form of grief for my old, sick, thin, ‘anorexic’ body… and I thought […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Recovery Rewiring Weight Changes

Anxiety Rising… But Why?

My anxiety over the past few days has been rising again, after a couple of weeks where it had been lower than ever – and not because the eating disorder was winning! The return of the anxiety was an unwelcome surprise a few days ago and instead of abating again as I hoped it would, […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Fear Foods Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Exposure Therapy

For many people a picture like this of delicious food depicts a happy occasion and a relaxing time… To me, a picture like this depicts hard work, pain and my version of exposure therapy! Most people who first learn that restrictive eating disorder treatment entails having to rest a lot and eat a lot of […]

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Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Fine Tuning In Eating Disorder Recovery

I feel I am at a strange stage in this eating disorder recovery. I have done the early bit where what you have to do is incredibly complicated in an eating disordered mind but really very simple – eat more food, rest and forego behaviours. The what you eat, where, when or how does not […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Lower Level Movement / Exercise Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Rewiring

Extreme Exhaustion In Recovery

Last night a strange thing happened in Recovery Nomadsland. I’d spent the day restfully resting i.e proper relaxed resting rather than sitting tensely with my brain on a million things at once! And as I restfully rested, exhaustion hit. My body hurt, my head ached, I felt flulike without the fever and my brain was […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Emotion Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring Weight Changes

Every Small Win In Recovery Counts And Should Be Celebrated!

One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Emotion Fear Foods Lower Level Movement / Exercise Motivation Other Eating Disorder Behaviours Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Learnings From Recovery After 3 Months

After two months of starting this recovery, I wrote about what I’d learnt at that point. This is an extension, with the further learnings from month three. At the start of month three I adopted a faster approach & revised plan, which has had its ups & downs but generally proven beneficial! I plan to […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Fear Foods Motivation Recovery Restriction Rewiring

Fear Of Being Underfed In Recovery

When accepting help creates terror but it’s not why you think. I have just had one of those dawning moments that make some of the recovery fears a little clearer. I consider myself an inadvertent victim of the traditional treatment I’ve received ‘help’ from in the past. Models where meal plans were barely adequate to […]

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Anxiety In Recovery Motivation Recovery Rewiring

Using Curiosity In Recovery

Curiosity in Eating Disorder Recovery. Having recently made more progress in recovery – in being able to make changes – eat more, accept weight gain at any rate & generally feel more relaxed & determined on putting in the necessary recovery action, I have been evaluating what it is that has changed in my approach. […]