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Continuing The Climb Into Eating Disorder Recovery… A Tough Decision

In my last post I wrote about the reflections that I had been making on my eating disorder recovery so far – where I was at the start of this journey and where I am now in recovery and life terms. And I suppose, the truth is that yes, I’ve come a bloody long way […]

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The Side Effects Of Eating Disorder Recovery!

When it comes to eating disorder recovery, it gets worse before it gets better.  The side effects of recovery are often unpleasant, frequently distressing and at times just plain brutal! When I started out on this very determined and most definitely final recovery attempt a few months ago,  I jumped into a process of eating […]

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Finding Pleasure In Life Again!

Today I went to the theatre on a wild, spontaneous, spur of the moment decision! I’ve always loved live theatre and can still remember the magic of seeing Cats on stage when I was a little girl.  Since then the magic of the live stage has always captivated me. Sadly, for many reasons, my enjoyment […]

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Moving On… Quite Literally!

In this post I thought I would share a bit more about what is happening with me.. I have written before about my background and what led me to start this full on recovery attempt a few months ago (Read More About Me! if you have not!). In that post, I wrote about the fact that I […]

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When Life Becomes Possible Again In Eating Disorder Recovery

One thing I am finding as I progress through recovery, is that the fears that I needed to force life doors open, or they never would, that I had at the start of recovery or when I was still quite unwell were not grounded. During the years of illness and particularly during the latter years, […]

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Addressing Food AND Exercise Compulsions In Recovery At The Same Time?

One of the most common questions about eating disorder recovery that I get a lot and that I asked myself when trying to work out how to approach recovery is do we address all the fears… the eating more food, the resting, the stopping all the other weird s**t we do at the same time..? […]

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Lost Friends

I don’t know if I am going to be able to put down in words what I feel in my heart about the friendships and relationships that have been victims to this eating disorder. Because, an eating disorder does not just affect the life of those of us who are ill…  it impacts massively on […]

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Recovery Drifting – Terrifying!

Eating disorder recovery is often described as a journey because… well because it is really.  You certainly don’t just pop a magic pill and the next day you are recovered (if only!!). Eating disorder recovery is generally quite a messy, painful, bumpy process of tears, snot, frustration and quite a lot of food. But it […]

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It’s All About Me Time!!

I don’t know about you but I hate the term ‘self care’ or ‘self love’. For me, I think this irritation with this term actually largely stems from a therapist I once had whose automatic response to just about anything was, ‘be kind to yourself’….  It got to the point that I would be timing […]

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Cold Weather With An Eating Disorder

So today in the UK it certainly feels like autumn has set in and summer is well and truly behind us. For years now I’ve always dreaded this time of year when the seasons change and the weather turns much colder.  Yet before my eating disorder I enjoyed winter as much as summer and being […]

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Time To Look Forward… Or Was It?

The past couple of weeks have not been easy in recovery.  I have had increased anxiety and a drop in mood across some of the days and it has been a bit more dippy in the recovery rollercoaster than it was for a while. Things have been feeling tougher again and the prospect of keeping […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Brain Fog

In a perfect world, eating disorder recovery would involve our being able to grasp a clear and consistent understanding on what recovery takes. We would hold onto what our ‘prescription’ was & even though executing it isn’t easy, we would keep a basic understanding of the plan, why it was such and the hoped for […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Using A Fast Approach

Over the years I had treatment attempts for my eating disorder using the traditional low and slow approach – always leaving me at partial weight restoration and in a quasi recovery but never getting me recoverED! In treatment it was ingrained that we gain 0.5-1kg a week on meal plans that were restrictive and the […]

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My Recovery Mantra!

Warning – use of swearing – don’t read if easily offended!!! Ok… I was never going to post this because I thought it might scare or it might offend people. However, I’m often asked what led me to jump from those murky recover waters we often find ourselves in… That space between in the illness […]

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Recovery As A Staircase!

One thing about eating disorder recovery I have noticed is that I can and I have aimed to do recovery action all in one go- eat freely, rest like a sloth all day, feel fine about gaining weight and as a result heal my brain and body. This is the ideal! If I could have […]