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Every Small Win In Recovery Counts And Should Be Celebrated!

One thing that makes me sad and mad about eating disorders (true there are many things but I’ll just rant about this one for now!) is that the illness will rarely let us realise just what we have achieved in a day or even a moment. I often hear people in the eating disorder community […]

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A Resigned To Recovery Mindset

Recently I feel I have been doing better in recovery than ever, with great days of eating LOTS more, resting more, accepting weight gain. On bad days though I’ve still struggled to eat my usual ‘safe’ recovery amount or keep to a conservative recovery routine without intense anxiety. Of course recovery is ups & downs […]

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Severe And Enduring Eating Disorders (SEED)

Being diagnosed with an eating disorder is not a joyous occasion but it provides a medical reasoning for the food rules, anxieties, behaviours, weight manipulation & feeling of craziness that an eating disorder brings to our lives. Once diagnosed we can feel relief & hope – now diagnosed, surely treatment can help us get better? […]

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Sick Enough?

Eating disorders are cruel. They make us depressed, anxious, obsessive, compulsive, routine driven and rigid… causing us to isolate and become very disabled. They make us deprive our body of essential nutrition and push it to physical limits most would not survive at. And yet despite this, we still strongly believe that we are ‘not […]

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Holding On Through Dark Days

Having survived a few storms lately and being aware that some of you are in the thick of one now, I thought this quote appropriate and I was reflecting more on it. There have been times in this illness and now in recovery, when darkness has descended on me. Sadness, despair, loss of hope, distress […]

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Does Eating Disorder Recovery Need A Light Bulb Moment?

A light-bulb moment? Yesterday, I explained, in my post, More About Me!, that turning 40 this year was part of the wake up call I needed to take meaningful action against the eating disorder that had plagued my life for well over a decade. But with an eating disorder we often wait for a light […]

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More About Me!

I’ve recently been asked to say more about me & why I started this serious recovery attempt now. Firstly, though – this is my not so happy story but I know we all have sad stories & I’m just sharing this as people have expressed interest. I do know many of you have had it […]

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Will Recovery Ever Be ‘Good Enough’?

Will our efforts in recovery ever feel ‘good enough’ to us? As I write this, I have had another day in recovery land…. and recovery is long and tiresome at times. It is never ceasing having to focus on eating more, not letting the eating disorder into decisions on the food side and keep alert […]

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The Confusion Of Weight Gain

In this post I’m going to talk a bit about weight changes in eating disorder recovery, so although I don’t mention numbers, if weight issues trigger you then don’t read! Weight & this eating disorder is an issue I find confusing. Having first developed an eating disorder as an adult, I was in a body […]

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I Will Start Recovery When…

I’ll do recovery when… There are many thought patterns we all fall into the pits of with an eating disorder… ways that the ED will keep us stuck and hold us prisoner. One of these, I noticed I was sliding into this morning. The good old – if this perfect set of circumstances were to […]

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Swearing Helps Eating Disorder Recovery

Anyone else find that they go through life rarely swearing but when it comes to eating disorder recovery or considering anything to do with an ED the language becomes less than polite? Maybe it’s just me… but I don’t think so! Recently I’ve turned into a person who can curse with the best of them. […]

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Anorexia Statistics Need To Change

With eating disorders, when you see the official numbers portrayed in the media & from research it can be disheartening reading. One of the most commonly cited statistics for anorexia that always stayed with me over the years is that it is an illness of thirds… – one third will recover – one third will […]

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Putting Life On Hold For Eating Disorder Recovery

Recovery First: Putting life on hold to get well can be an important decision. One thing that pushed me to put my life on hold to recover was hitting the age of 40 this year & the reality hit of just how sick I was & how, despite being functional, the illness was trapping me: […]

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One Week Into Full Recovery Method And Hope!

A week ago I started a new recovery approach. After a few weeks of high anxiety levels, distress & to-ing & fro-ing with the ‘right way’ to do recovery I needed to find a way through. I don’t work with ‘specialists’ or under medical guidance & my route to recovery is my own messy & […]

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Using Curiosity In Recovery

Curiosity in Eating Disorder Recovery. Having recently made more progress in recovery – in being able to make changes – eat more, accept weight gain at any rate and generally feel more relaxed and determined on putting in the necessary recovery action, I have been evaluating what it is that has changed in my approach. […]