How many times have I written posts about how tough eating disorder recovery is?
The answer to that is many, many times and you can find them in the hundreds of posts that are now on this website. Posts about the fact that eating disorder recovery is exhausting, emotional, draining, terrifying and very definitely all consuming of your whole entire life.
But perhaps I have not always written enough about how, sometimes, even on, or perhaps especially on the hardest recovery days, you have to pull on the f**k it mindset in recovery and find your wild and free side!
Now, I can write this because I know it first hand and because I was that person for so many years, but eating disorders make a person rigid, uptight, unemotional, driven, perfectionistic and I am sorry, I am going to say it, just a bit boring.
If you have lived with an eating disorder for any amount of time, I suspect that you might have lost your slightly wilder, fun side. Plus, I can be really quite confident when I say that you most definitely don’t feel particularly free in your life, while being chained to the inner mental demands of the illness.
Sometimes, though, in recovery, it takes digging deep, pushing the way you are really feeling to one side, and putting on a bit of a ‘fake it to make it’ approach… All things that I have discussed in previous posts about methods that most definitely help in the recovery rewiring process.
So, perhaps it is time to dig deep, find your inner child if you must, and decide that today, is the perfect day to go a bit wild and free in your eating disorder recovery!
And I hear you ask, what might that look like?
Well, the beauty of being truly wild and free (and a little bit f**k it) is that you get to fully and completely decide what being wild and free for you, when you truly let your wild beast out the cage you keep it so tightly coiled into, actually looks like.
But in case it has been so long since your wild beast was unleashed that you cannot remember what they loved to do, I can provide a few initial suggestions…
Being wild and free means doing something that you would never usually do, something so out of character that people will be amazed and maybe even a bit jealous.
Therefore, you could dye your hair bright pink, buy yourself a pair of comfy and luxurious pyjamas and wear them for the next 72 hours while sipping champagne and eating chocolate truffles or (and this one I highly recommend) do that thing (the one that only you know about) that you always told yourself, ‘I will do that when I am recovered…‘.
Stop waiting to ‘be recovered’ to let yourself go!
Be wild and free now because doing so will help to show your brain new pathways in all aspects of your life. When you give your brain a chance to do that, it will make it a little easier for you to find new neural paths when it comes to eating a ton of food and not compensating (at all!) as well.
I am so excited for you to go wild and free… Let me know what you are doing to go wild and free in your recover-ee today!
(I HAVE ALSO MADE A VERSION OF THIS BLOG POST INTO A PODCAST EPISODE ON MY PODCAST SERIES, ‘FECK IT, FUN, FABULOUS & FREE IN EATING DISORDER RECOVERY’, SO IF YOU LIKE TO LISTEN, AS WELL AS READ, THEN PLEASE CHECK IT OUT.
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