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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Exercise & Movement in Recovery – Is It Compulsive?

Compulsive movement or exercise is a key part of an eating disorder for many… and I can confirm, first hand, that it is a miserable and cruel thing to live with. Feeling compelled to keep moving your body, no matter what, and when not doing so feels overwhelmingly wrong and terrifying, makes the movement side […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Weight Changes

‘All In’ For Eating Disorder Recovery… My Love-Hate Relationship With The Term

In eating disorder recovery communities, the term ‘all in’ has now been used for a few years to describe the eat all you can approach to recovery that many promote and have success with. I have written before about the concept of ‘all in’ on this site but I have never been a big fan […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Always Make the Weight Gain Choice to Rewire and Recover!

In this post, I am going to do something I have not done before… In my eating disorder recovery, I always found that writing a journal was incredibly useful to me as it helped me get out my frustrations, identify what was troubling me in that moment and then mentally process what I needed to […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Recovery Motivation Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

‘All in’, Recover and Done? My Truth

It is the second birthday of this website. When I look back now to where I was when I started this website: back living with my parents and going through a few very intense recovery months, my life today is very different and better in so many ways. However, when I look back and think […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

When Eating Disorder Treatment Creates More Fear

Over the past week, I was reflecting on my years of illness with anorexia and the periods of time I spent in eating disorder treatment (with more than one admission to an eating disorder unit). These are not the most happy memories to look back on but as I did so, I realised with no […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Recovery Motivation Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Seeking reassurance about ‘overshoot’?

The most searched for and read posts on this blog are my posts about overshoot weight and set point weight. Perhaps this should not be surprising as people with eating disorders are scared of weight gain and so seeking information about the weight they are gaining or have gained is probably to be expected. However, […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Tired Of Recovery And Exhausted In Recovery

I wrote this post almost a year ago but did not publish it. It is about a state in recovery that has been present at various points in the recovery process… It is one that can trigger all kinds of feelings and judgements (including guilt, wrong-doing, shame, frustration) if we allow it to.  This is […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Helping Family / Carers Understand Restriction & Fear Foods Weight Changes

Feast Always Follows Famine

‘Feast Always Follows Famine’…. These old sayings exist because they are true. And in eating disorder recovery when you think you are broken because you are hungry ALL the time and thoughts of food will never switch off, even when your stomach is stretched to a painfully full limit yet no amount of food that […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Recovery Motivation Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

“Quasi Recovery” – An Inevitability In Eating Disorder Recovery?

Is the dreaded ‘quasi-recovery’ an inevitability in the recovery process from an eating disorder? This is a question that occurred to me recently. Before I continue though, for those who are not aware of this term, ‘quasi recovery’ refers to the half-way (or maybe a bit more than half-way) recovery state that many people hit […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Weight Changes

A Bad Body Image Day

This morning I woke up with bad body image. I had discomfort with my body, a general feeling of being bigger and a sense of negativity about it all…  I felt more aware of my size and uncomfortable both mentally and physically. It is actually unusual for me to experience poor body image days like […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Other ED Behaviours Recovery Motivation Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Why I Won’t Be Joining The “Strong Not Skinny” Craze In Eating Disorder Recovery

Within the eating disorder recovery community there is a large following of the ‘strong not skinny’ movement and a focus on this in terms of recovering from a restrictive eating disorder. Being the naive person that I can be at times, on first hearing the term ‘strong not skinny’ when it was used in relation […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Eating Disorder Treatment Emotions Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Recovery Motivation Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Things I Wish I Had Known When I First Developed Anorexia….

When I first became ill with anorexia nervosa, I was a 27 year old woman who had never had any form of disordered eating, history of dieting or weight manipulation and I was at a stage in my life where I felt happy and settled.  Therefore finding myself with a severe eating disorder was a […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Emotions Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Recovery Motivation Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Eating Disorder Recovery – “Tell Me How To Recover!!”

How many times did I seek the magic answer to eating disorder recovery over my years of illness? How many times have I been asked the question or asked it myself of others, ‘…but HOW?!?’. “But HOW do I eat more / rest more / stop my weird and not so wonderful eating disorder behaviours […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Weight Changes

Recovery Is About Life Growth, Not Just Body Growth!

“Recovery is about life growth and not just body growth…” I was feeling honoured to have been quoted by my very good friend Hadley on this in her Instagram posts last week. These little words popped out of my brain and into my messaging app when Hadley and I were having a conversation about the greater volume […]

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Eating Disorder Recovery Exercise / Compulsive Movement Fear & Anxiety In Recovery Other ED Behaviours Restriction & Fear Foods Rewiring / Neuroplasticity Weight Changes

Identifying When Recovery Is Slipping / Signs Of Relapse

In recovery from an eating disorder, it takes constant vigilance to keep the momentum of recovery going.  And when life starts to get more involved again after years of illness and takes over in other wonderful ways, it can be easy to take your eye off the recovery ball and not instantly notice that recovery […]